Sometimes I find a _______.
I shut my eyes.
I ask myself how I feel.
I am my best therapist.
Am I my best therapist?
I ask myself
What am I hiding
(hiding or hiding from?)
in the basement of my mind.
My conscience calls
But alas, no answer.
To search myself
And discover nothing.
I come home
I find a monster
like that from a
Stephen King novel
and I regret
I ever searched
in the first place.
What do you find
When you search
Or do you move
from place to place
with the same, old box
A Lonely Pinwheel. Chapter 2020. Honestly Self-Aware. © TheFragranceWriter.com, 2020, except where noted otherwise. All rights reserved.
The waves are rocking me inside their crib.
I’m melancholy. Hazy. Unfocused.
I don’t know me – What I do – What I did.
. . .Don’t even recollect when I penned this.
My conscience says, “Pull yourself together.”
“This isn’t the plan for a man to be.”
“No, he should stand tall and face the weather.”
“Raise the sails, stand helm, and conquer the sea.”
But I’m indifferent and apathetic.
I’m stale and calm – Dull and unmoving.
But I’m okay with being pathetic.
I dissolved my resolve in self-soothing.
Where currents flow, they take me where I go.
And when I’m gone, no one will even know.
Chapter 2020. Honestly Self-Aware.
© Jonathan Pines and WritingWithStrangers, 2020, except where noted otherwise. All rights reserved.
So. . . Here I am. . . Lying. . . Stuck in my grave.
But who I fell with appears to have left.
I guess strong ambitions can’t always save.
They leave you forsaken, reeking of death.
Ironic, it’s the eve of Halloween
And it’s the hour I realize I’m dead.
A pumpkin spice latte, so unforeseen,
would be the last supper before my bed.
I have dark humor to jeer at myself.
But. . . it stings. . . to be abandoned by love.
It’s one thing to lose your health. . . or your wealth.
But you left me. . . no reason. . . no motive. . .
But I remember, once what I have read.
That Jesus can bring back to life the dead.
I Heard You Scream and Yell
© Jonathan Pines and WritingWithStrangers, 2019, except where noted otherwise. All rights reserved.